Holidays You Ruined For Me

When I think about it, there are quite a few days of the year that should be special, but are no longer enjoyable to me because of you. I met you on New Year's Eve 1987 so that is definitely out. I married you the first time on April 3 so spring sucks. I married you the second time in October so there goes Halloween. You left me on Valentines Day. You left me on our granddaughters birthday. You left me a week before Mother's Day. Wow this list just goes on and on. Christmas with you was always stressful because you hate Christmas. I can't think of a single special day of the year that you enjoyed, not even birthdays. I spent so much time trying to make you happy...no not even that just trying not to make you angry. I keep trying to figure out why you kept leaving and why you kept right on hurting me over and over again. Two simple answers. You never gave a damn about me to begin with in spite of four kids, six grandkids, twenty five years of my life spent loving you. And because I let you. I let you hurt me over and over again because I loved you so much. I wanted to hope. I wanted to believe. I wanted you to love me. Well I guess this just shows you can't always get what you want.